Summary: Cale talks to Robin for some advice; repairs their relationship somewhat now that he is more calm about things.
Date: June 15, 2012
Log Title: On Sisters and Mentors
Rating: PG
Xavier Mansion - Atrium
The Atrium is large room with four corridors leading off in diagonal directions to the classrooms and dorms. A large window looks over the front courtyard. The Atrium has also been turned into a social area for students and teachers, with chairs, tables and a television set. Since its a main area of passing, it is encouraged that people keep things to a respectful volume.
Robin is in the Atrium, sitting at one of the tables with a book in front of her, as she seems to be pre-studying for some kind of biology class that she will be taking in the fall. For now, it is just studying. Her hair is tied up in a bun, with a few strands falling into her face, as she chews on the back of her pencil lightly as she contemplates what she's reading.
It's… well, really, Kaylee's head is spinning. She had no idea things would be this easy, or move this fast, and frankly it's scaring her a little. Being a girl. Something she has wanted - even though she's not actually female it's… still… Just wearing the clothes she's wanted to wear, even, still seems a bit crazy to her. Now that she's out to most of her friends, she's not sure where to progress from there. Being in the boys' dorm is a bit awkward, but so would be in the girls' at this point… And… well, other things. In general, she's just not sure what to do. So it's not surprising that she feels like she needs to talk to /someone/ for a bit of direction. So it ends up that she's heading towards the professor wing to talk to someone on staff about what to do about her new situation. Self created as it is. That's when she spots Robin, wandering in in her now normal skirt/shirt combo. That would be because she doesn't actually own any girl-pants yet.
"Err, hi!" she smiles nervously, rubbing one arm with the other. She's still definitely the same /person/ as before, but looks significantly different. Just about unrecognizable as Cale. Well. Not really but.
Robin looks up towards Cale with a blank expression for a few moments before a flash of recognition comes across her expression. "Oh! Hello! You are looking very pretty, I am glad that you're trying this out… it can really be a lot of help to express yourself that way."
Kaylee smiles, sitting down near Robin with her knees pressed together, "Yeah. I mean. I really like it…" she trails off, "I decided I'm going to. I dunno. Be like this from now on," she nods several times emphatically. "I've been telling people and they seem okay with it but… I mean… I don't even know. You know, where I go from here. I feel like I just dove into the deep end without knowing how to swim. But, I don't want to go back."
"I get that feeling all to well," says Robin, smiling at that, Blank standing up behind Robin to put her hands on the girl's shoulders. "I'm glad that everything is going so well for you, Cale. I know that it can really be hard, it was really hard for me too… But it really is a wonderful feeling, isn't it?"
"It's Kaylee," the girl smiles up at Robin shyly, "Unless I'm being Cale. Because I have to. But I don't want to be Cale anymore. I mean, he's the same person as me. I am Cale, and I am Kaylee. I'm not crazy. But you know what I mean. It's… I don't know. It's amazing. I can just be myself. Everyone is okay with it. I thought they would hate me if they actually knew. But," she pauses, "I mean I'm still a boy. Physically. I don't like it. But, I don't think I can probably depend on a random magical incident to happen…"
"Well, no… you really can't. I was planning on doing, like, all the hormone therapy and stuff before everything happened… Actually, I started on getting at least some hormone blockers but… I just wore like… fake boobs, it was pretty silly, I guess…" says Robin, scratching the back of her head, "My ex boyfriend helped me a lot with stuff."
"D… do you think I ought to do that?" Kaylee rubs the back of her neck, "I mean. I don't think I would wear fake breasts. I think that's a little silly. But the hormone blockers and eventually, I dunno. Surgery or something…" she glances out the window nervously, sighing a little. "I mean. I think there has to be a better way but."
Robin shrugs and then says, "Whatever you think you want in order to be happy, Kaylee… that's really what it all amounts to." She bites her lip lightly and then stares off, "Surgery is pretty serious stuff, but I know that it helps a lot of people…"
"I want to… someday be able to have sex… you know… the normal way…" Kaylee says tentatively, "I don't know. I guess that is sorta… maybe too much information? But…" she sighs. "I don't know. I mean. I guess it's a ways off. But, I also don't want my body to like, change. It's. I mean. It's not. Perfect right now. But it could be a lot worse, I guess…" she chews on her lip, "Anyway, I just wanted to say I'm sorry for how I acted before. When we first met."
"It's fine, I can understand that feeling. I was jealous of people with other powers, powers that I could have used to… change myself. My ex is a shapeshifter, and when we were going out, I was /so/ jealous…" says Robin, sighing and then looking up to the roof, "But yeah, it's a long ways off. Time to think about these things."
"Is your ex… Skyler?" Kaylee asks curiously, "I kind of. I was. Erm. I decided to dress up and go out for a walk, and I kinda… ran into them," she smiles faintly. "He told me about his ex, and how they were similar to me. And that I shouldn't be afraid, or feel like I have to hide, at Xavier's. So, I just kinda decided. I dunno. Maybe it's 'cause my sister Amy is back, and I got to talk to her about it. I feel a loooot safer, erm. Well. More confident with her around. It's sorta crazy. Anyway. But I just decided to kinda go for it…" she murmurs, "And yeah! I know right? Skyler was even a woman when I found her that time. Noooot fair."
"Yeah… My ex is Skyler…" says Robin, rather flaty with a slight frown, "And I'm glad that your sister is back, especially if she gives you confidence. I have a younger sister who I care about dearly, a sister can be a wonderful thing." She smiles at that, just slightly, fidgeting with the pages of her book. "Skyler was going through a rough patch, anyways. Pushed me away. I kind of felt useless."
"She's older than me! Actually," Kaylee rubs the back of her neck, "She's very tough! That's the reason why she gives me confidence," she grins goofily. "Also she's just, like, so cool. Though, she says I'm prettier… but, I think she's really pretty. She's awesome. I mean, just like, the best. When I was a kid, even though, I mean. Even though I was the brother, she beat up all my bullies. So nobody would pick on me. At least when she was around," she smiles. "She's like, Bruce Lee or something," she makes martial arts motions with her arms. "Like that! Or like, Major Kusanagi from Ghost in the Shell! Yeah. Like her. Anyway. I know that, with her here, nothing bad can happen. I just feel that."
Robin laughs softly and then says, "Well, that's very sweet of you to say about your big sister. I hope that my little sister would say the same about me… but, well, I dunno." She brushes her hand through her hair and then says, "I'm just really glad that you have someone who can help you through all this. It's nice to have some family. So… everyone's reacted well to you so far, coming out and all that?"
"Well mostly. My friend Shane wasn't even surprised. Her dads are gay, though," Kaylee rubs the back of her neck, "And she's from LA. So that's probably it. My friend Nick though. I mean, he's my friend. And he's got a girlfriend. But I like him! I mean. You know. I have a crush on him. Had?" she frowns a little sadly, but smiles afterwards. "It freaked him out pretty bad. But, it didn't … erm, it didn't. He's okay! I mean, he doesn't hate me. But he freaked out, and he doesn't understand at all," she frowns.
"It's really hard to explain to people. They just don't get it. Like, why can't you just be happy with who you are? So I try to explain like. Well what if you were a girl. Would you like that? And they're like, no. And I'm like, well, it's just like that! Except opposite…" she sighs. "Anyway. That wasn't Nick, that was this other kid. But same thing," she rambles sighing and rolling her shoulders a little bit before stretching her arms out. "Anyway, it's okay, I think. Anyway. I'm just… should I be doing all this stuff, on my own? Is it okay?"
"Yeah, it's okay. I mean, you aren't really doing it on your own, either. You've mentioned that you have support of other people, but… I mean, you aren't doing anything medical or anything, you're just wearing clothes you feel comfortable wearing. There's nothing wrong with that, Kaylee," says Robin, smiling at that.
"Well yeah but. What if I want to go further? I do want to go further. I don't even know how to… well, how to do that…" Kaylee murmurs, looking down at the table. "I dunno," she glances out the window idly. "Bluuh…" she sighs again. "I guess I kinda know…" she nods suddenly. "Can… I ask you a favor though? If I have to talk to the staff about it… can you… can you be there? I mean I guess you kinda are staff or something. But. It would help me. If there were someone who understood. Even my friend Tay, I mean, they're in a similar situation, but they don't really understand."
"I would be glad to be there for you, Kaylee," says Robin, smiling encouragingly towards Kaylee, "I wished back when I first got here that I could have a sort of mentor, or at least someone who had sort of been there. So… you know, if you need to talk about anything, I really am here for you."
Kaylee leans over, giving Robin a quick hug before she grins excitely, "Awesome. You're awesome," she nods several times emphatically, "Anyway, I'm gonna get going to bed. Need my sleep and all," she whirls around on the ball of one of her feet (bare) and marches off towards the elevator.
