2010-02-21: You Have To Try


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Summary: Addison and Kenta discuss Brian.

Date: February 21, 2010

Log Title You Have To Try


Xavier Mansion - Courtyard

Surrounded on three sides by the school, a large courtyard forms the front yard. The courtyard leads right up to the door of the mansion. Yellow square stone slabs cover the ground where the grass would be. The most noticeable thing about the courtyard is the large statue of Jean Gray, aka Phoenix, in the middle as a memorial. Benches surround the outside of the statue so students can sit and hang out in the courtyard. There are two paths leading off the courtyard, one to the left and the other to the right.

It's a bit chilly out but nothing compared to what it's been lately, not that it matters to Kenta, he can't really feel the cold. He's lying down on one of the benches just enjoying the morning, smoking a cigarette. There's a cup of coffee on the ground that's been ignored in favour of a smoke. He's just enjoying the quite of the morning, there's something relaxing about it. In between drags of his cigarette he sings a bit to himself, just because he wants to.

Addison himself is keeping his flaming aura gently around his body, enough to keep the cold at bay. That, and it's here. It's not like anyone's going to say anything on campus. Walking along, he's thinking about a lot of things. After the past few weeks, he's just been trying to relax for the first time in a VERY long while. As he nears Kenta, he offers a light wave.

Kenta swings around as Addison waves, so that he's sitting on the bench. "Hey Addison, how's it going? Nice to finally see you outside of Cerbra." He says with a chuckle even though the two of them see each other in team practice from time to time. "So how are you holdin' up?"

"Better now. I've been out of it for a while." Addison chides, shaking his head. "I'm just tired lately. With everything that's gone on, and now, with so many students, I wonder if I have the energy to do so much." He admits, shrugging. Ponderinng for a moment, he moves to sit on the bench near the darkforce manipulator.

"You're putting too much on yourself man." Kenta says but he knows that Addison is the only telepath here and the only one who can work Cerbra so there's not much of a choice. "At least this whole thing with the demons is over. Man, invasions, it's becoming a yearly thing, isn't it." He says with a smirk as he's teasing Addison a bit. "But to relax, you should take Brian out. That kids needs to stop being so lost."

"Yeah, Brian." Addison says with a nod. "I'm getting somewhat worried. I've been reading the files. And I've been listening to what's going on." He admits. Yeah, he knows there's a Sinister thing going around. And he knows Brian's history. He's scared for it. But he's keeping a brave face. And… he's not saying anything one way or the other to Brian about it when he sees him.

"I feel bad, about Brian. He's never been the same since the first time Sinister took him." Kenta says as it was an odd time for him and Brian. "He needed his friends to be there for him and we couldn't be. I mean, Brian was my roommate years ago but now, I'm so much older than him that I think it kind of messed with him. Not just me but most his close friends. He needs someone whose there for him Addison." Maybe Kenta's saying that someone should be his boyfriend.

"I am. I try to be. But, I'm scared right now. I don't know what's going to happen. And I don't know if I'm strong enough to prevent it or get in the way of it. And I know I'm going to try." Addison says. He does love Brian. Truly. He's just scared. He's never gotten a chance to be close to anyone in his previous world. "And I'm afraid of failing. again."

"Just try, it's the best you can do." Kenta says tossing away his cigarette. He'll bring it in with him later to actually /throw/ away so he's not littering the school grounds. "Just be honest with him and Addison, it's not about failing, it's about trying. Try as hard as you can and not matter what happens, just know that it will get resolved some how. I've been through the worst, so have you, you know things get better."

"I do, but I've never had so much to lose." The red-head admits, looking down. "It's all so new to me. To let people in. And then know something's coming, and be deathly afraid you can't stop it now that you have yourself in your own hands again." He says with a nod. "I plan to. I'm just scared. That's all."

"It's hard, I'll admit that. I lost Daphne, and it's been hell getting over that." Kenta says shaking his head. There's no words to describe that loss. "Hell, I haven't even gotten back on the dating horse but maybe cause I'm also also a single father with an obvious mutation. And Addison, it'll be okay. It's gonna suck, whatever happens. We know something is coming, we just have to…I dunno, be there for him when it's over. If something happens."

Addison shakes his head. "No, I'm going to be there before it's over. I know there's some way that I can prevent it… or stop it before it's too late… if I just look hard enough. I just need to be a little more diligent anda little stronger." he says, nodding. He's already got it set in his mind, but it's obvious he's not going to just let things happen.

Kenta looks up at Addison and nods. "Just to me a favour, don't beat yourself up /if/ you can't prevent it. This is Mr. Sinister, he's fucked with Brian twice before, and Daisuke." He has no clue why this guy has a hardon for the two teen mutants. "You can try to prevent it, and if you succeed, I'll give you and Brian enough money to go out for a fancy dinner, but if you can't, just, please, it's not worth beating yourself up over. I saw you during the demon thing, you think you can go through that again?" Meaning wearing himself down like that.

"I'll do what I have to. When someone pulls things like this, it turns to war." See, that's the problem. Addison is used to War. He knows how to push himself in situations like that. Of course, he's downright worthless afterwards, but he does. "I can't promise you I won't. But… I can promise to try not to blame myself." He's not like the kids. He knows he can't do everything.

"Addison, no, it won't turn to war. It'll turn to suck for us, for them, but not war." Kenta's like Addison, he has seen war, but unlike Addison, he wasn't raised in it. "Just also remember, /you'll/ need people to be there for /you/ if anything happens. Don't hesitate to rely on others. You're in a different world now, take advantage of that." He says with a smile to Addison.

"I can't promise." Addison says. "My mind doesn't work like most people's. He says with a bit of a shrug. "But I'll try." He reiterates as he runs a hand through his hair.

"I'm not asking you to promise anything, but trying is good." Kenta says, he's more just trying to remind Addison that he's not alone. "Man, it's no surprise you and Brian are together, but I just don't understand one thing. The two of you are so stiff about relying on other people." Well Brian is now, he wasn't always. "You both keep this stone faced act that you can deal, how do you deal with each other? Lean on each other?"

"We… we understand." Addison explains. "We know what the other's going through and has been through. Like no one else can. And… when we're joined, we know. Utterly. How alike we are." He doesn't explain the joining, forgetting that not everyone can link mentally like he can. It's just second nature for him as a telepath to share his mind with his chosen partner.

Kenta stands up and pats Addison on the shoulder. "Good, I'm glad he has you just, you have other friends, and teammates, here too." Kenta says hoping that if Addison needs help, he'll find someone. "Take care Addison, I gotta get going. Gotta pick my son up in a bit."

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